Welcome to Properly Held

What happens when you stop holding back and let yourself be held

Welcome

Hi. I’m Evie Skye.

For most of my life, I wasn’t the person I wanted to be sexually. The reasons aren’t especially interesting, and they don’t matter much anymore. What matters is that desire doesn’t disappear when you ignore it — it waits.

For me, erotica and romance were the first places I could safely explore what I wanted. Quietly. Privately. Without having to explain myself. Reading darker work — especially stories involving power dynamics and Daddy Dom relationships — unlocked something I’d been holding back for a long time.

At the time, I was in a long-term relationship with a man I loved deeply. We’d weathered a lot together. What we hadn’t done was talk honestly about my fantasies. I’d kept them to myself. When I finally worked up the courage to ask him to explore them with me, he didn’t hesitate.

Sharing these fantasies — first through fiction, then in real life — brought us closer. The trust deepened. The more honest we became, the more solid everything felt. That trust eventually opened the door to something I hadn’t expected to want, let alone name.

Cuckqueaning.

It didn’t arrive as a plan. It arrived as a realization — one moment of unexpected arousal that made everything suddenly very clear. I returned to erotica again, using it the way I always had: as a place to explore safely before asking for anything out loud.

My partner met someone else. Through conversation, curiosity, and more honesty than any of us anticipated, the three of us fell in love. It complicated everything — including the kink that helped us get there. We’ve stumbled. We’ve hurt each other. We’ve learned. We’re still learning.

And through all of it, I kept writing.

At first, the writing was just for us — messages, scenes, stories meant to communicate things that were hard to say or ask for directly. Erotica has always been a way for me to be braver than I think I am. But when I went looking for stories that reflected what we were actually living — a loving triad, power dynamics, BDSM tendencies, and cuckqueaning — there wasn’t much there.

So I started writing it myself.

Properly Held exists because of that gap.

It’s fictional work, informed by lived experience.

It’s deliberate. Adult. Consensual.

It’s not a diary, and it’s not a performance.

This is a space for stories about power, care, desire, and the complicated ways people choose each other.

If that’s something you’re curious about, you’re welcome here.

— Evie